On Top of the World

One minute I was on top of the world
The next it was on top of me
In a moment so swift
As brief as the eagle's lift
It came as quick as the sunlight touching the sea

One day I felt I was surrounded by flowers
The next it was only thunder and storms
I stood in despair
With the rain in my hair
Wondering how I'd ever go on

And it was in that moment
This had to end, I knew
With teary eyes, I looked around
Picked myself up from the ground
And to the top of the world, again I flew.

No Lies. Just Love.

"Nothing is half as complicated as people make it. Just love and be loved and our lives are complete."

Live Your Freakinn Life...What Are You so Afraid of??

Insanity is the greatest high. That’s when the fun begins, the laughs break out, tears fall unexpectedly and life is lived. Don’t be scared to take the jump. Because the fall is worth it all. And if you hit the ground, it was worth it because at least you had the guts to plunge head first not knowing what was to come. Taking risks is the healthiest thing we could do in this life. We don’t have much time, and why should we waste our time playing it safe. Life itself does not play itself. The minute we are born we begin to die. Do you want to spend your time dying playing by the book, making sure you don’t get too close to the curb, always having your band-aids in your pocket, and having your helmet everywhere you go? Why not fight death, and have a good enough time in life, then maybe death would see we have purpose here. We don’t take life for granted; we make the most of it.
Make a difference. Make people remember you when you are gone. If we leave and our memory is forgotten, it’s as if we never lived. THAT is a life wasted. We would have gone through 60, 70, maybe longer if we’re lucky-years on this earth, and for what? People to say some sweet words at our funerals, and then within maybe 10-20 years, our memories, names, lives, have been completely forgotten and shuffled to the side of life? I don’t know about you, but that’s not how I am going to live my life. I am going to make a difference. I’m going to be remembered. Because if we can’t be remembered after we are gone…what’s the point in even being here now? “The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is to love and be loved in return.” Don’t be scared to love. I know we have all been through our pains and a struggle with love, but that doesn’t mean we should be afraid to love again. “Never regret something that once made you smile.” Don’t have any regrets, because everything thing that you have been through has made you who you are today. And if you aren’t happy with whom you are then there is always time to change. But how would you know what you want to change to and how you need to change if you weren’t the person you are today? Just don’t play with people’s emotion, that’s the most torturous thing you could do to someone. If you are going to love someone, love them with everything you have. If you are going to crash, crash hard. Live out everything to the fullest. That’s what makes life meaningful. And if you get scarred, that’s okay, because it’s just another experience you can look back on and learn from, hopefully making better decisions later on.

....but maybe just in case we should wear our helmets. ;)

What's Worse?

What's worse? Not knowing what you want? Or knowing what you want but having no idea on earth how to get it? You don't know where to begin, what to say, what to do, all you know is you want it, need it, crave it, and live for it. Wow each of them sound pretty unfair to me. I think it would be most horrible to know what you want and not know how to get it. You see, the first one; atleast you are blissfully unaware of what your heart truly desires . But the second one, you are acutely aware of what your heart desires, but not only that...you have no idea how to go about retrieving it. There may not even be a way at all. Why is life set up for such unfairness? At the same time though, would it be more worth it to know what you want and not being able to get it, or would it be more worth it to have no idea of what you want? It almost seems more worth it to know what you want and not be able to have it. Because atleast you have hope for getting what you want, which gives you something to look forward to in life you know? And even though it would come with misery that you don't know how to get what you want, atleast its what keeps you getting up every day. Crazy how things like that work out. The worst between two things sometimes ends up being the best.

School

So I think I am in my eighth week of school and so far everything is going pretty well. There isn't too much drama at this school and I have A's in all my classes too which makes things nice. I have met some cool friends and we get to hangout outside of school every now and then which is fun. We recently went to the fresno fair and had a blast! We ate lots of food haha and they rode the rides and we went into the exhibit and shops and looked around. I have always loved the fresno fair and I think I always will. :)

I have a biology test this wednesday that I am definitely not too psyched about. :...I have started studying but I still wish I knew the material better than I do. I guess this is just a learning experience to use and remember that for next module I will pay attention more in class haha. At least English is going well. That has always been my strongest subject...and I think anyone can do well in that class as long as they THINK. That is really all it takes, a little bit of thinking and common sense lol. I believe I have a 100% in the class right now and I plan to keep it that way for the rest of the year. In fact, my goal is to have a 100% in every class at the end of each semester. I figure if I am already getting A's might as well chase perfection and go for 100%'s. :)

Well I am kind of tired and need to get my sleep to be ready for school tomorrow. Goodnight all you bloggers. :)

started a new school a couple weeks ago. i really like it, and i enjoy my classes. the people there seem to be all nice too and today i went and hungout with a few at the mall. we had so much fun. oh and this year i get to go to mexico with my spanish 2 class so that will be cool. well i dont really have anything else to say...just that some new things seem to be happening and they seem to be good changes.

Sittin at home doing absolutely NOTHING

Wow I did not know that I could possibly be THIS bored. :....Here I am sitting at my desk, on the computer trying to find something to do...and to BLOG was the best thing I could come up with....now that is just sad. I would love to be out doing amazing things in our amazingly crappy world, but hey I am staying home tonight. Do you understand how that feels to have so much bottled up inside of you and so much you want to learn and teach and see and experience but you just can't?? At least not yet...but waiting for all of that to happen is dreadfully awful. It gets me frustrated having so much I want to do and wanting to make a change in so many things in the world but not being able to because I am too young or too little or too immature. Oh my gosh, it's like "Will you let me grow up already so that I can go out and do the amazing things I was born to do???" And yeah I know it's more complicated than that, but the most I have right now is volunteering at my gymnastics place...WOW. There are so many things I want to see and I don't get to see outside of my house or a certain area of fresno most of the time. I know that someday I will be able to do everything I have been planning to do for quite some time now, but the "right now" is getting kind of old...and I am ready for some big things to happen in my life. I guess I have going back to school to look forward to, but even then...will that really work out so well? I am not soo sure, but I am trying to have a positive outlook on it...I suppose lol. I have come to a conclusion that it is NOT healthy for people to do the same thing every single day. It isn't even healthy to have the same pattern you do each WEEK. Have the guts to try something new every single day, and do something different than the what you did the day before. Otherwise, we get tired and bored of our routine-cookie cutter-all mapped out-reading the rule book- lives. I know I am waitin for the day that I can get out of that lifestyle.

Thee Handshake

This is the amazing handshake we like to do. :)....I miss you guys!! <3

We Can All Be Superheroes.......RECYCLE!!

Okay so honestly....how hard is it to throw a plastic bottle or an aluminum can into a recycle bin or even just pick up some random litter and throw it in a garbage can? Would you like for someone to come into your home and dump trash everywhere? You would be pretty bugged wouldn't you? Just remember that our own homes are not the only homes we have...remember the big home we live in?....Hmm maybe the one called EARTH??...By not recycling, you are killing the environment and potentially killing the world we live in. Is it really that difficult?....to recycle, paper, plastic, glass, and aluminum??....That's like 4 things....not that difficult. We all need to give a hand and help recycle and save the earth....I know I know...."Save the World"...what are we?...superheroes? You don't have to be a superhero to save the earth. There are so many different things you can do to help out...recycling is just one of them, there is also, buying hybrid cars, using vehicles such as motorcycles instead of regular cars, discarding hazardous wastes properly, and there are many other things as well. You may think that doing any of those things won't help out the world at all....but it surely does. In fact, by doing each of those things, we ARE helping save the earth....so I guess we ARE superheroes. You don't need a cape or secret identity....just pick up some litter and kindly throw it in the trash, or recycle the cans and bottles you use. =D

Broken Down Cars?....Or No Car At All?

Okay, so I am back from my long long long break from blogging ha ha. I am not too sure about what I am going to be writing. But I decided maybe if I just try to pick this thing back up, eventually it will just "flow"...if you know what I mean. If not then that's okay, you can just continue to sit there scratching your head.

Anyway, lately I have been just trying to keep up with school, while also maintaining somewhat of a social life. That is slightly hard to do, only having 2 friends who live in town and the rest are college students, your parents don't want you around all the time. But I have decided that it will get better for me....and it will get better soon. And if it's not going to get better on its own, I will just have to make everything better myself. Or wait, that's God's job isn't it. haha oops, (didn't mean to steal your thunder) I think I'll just go ahead and leave that up to him lol.

But back to what I was saying, who knew freshman year would be sooo hard??! Someone did not let me in on that precious little secret, and they are going to pay! Haha, no not really, all in all I think it's gone pretty well so far. I'm still alive aren't I?...and that's all that I could ask for. I read this chinese proverb today and it said, "A gem cannot be polished without rubbing, nor is a man perfected without trials." Have you ever wondered what it would be like if we never went through anything bad? I'm sure you're thinking, oh yeah life would be a heck of a lot easier...but would we appreciate? Maybe going through the bad stuff is what really makes all of the good stuff matter. If we only had good things happen to us pretty soon we would take it all for granted. Not that we already take everything for granted as it is. But still, we would get too used to good things happening to us. Look at it this way, wouldn't you much rather have a car to get broken down in on the side of the road, then to have no car at all? At least you have a crappy car. Lol, I bet there are a million people that don't have cars or homeless people that would think, "Man, I would kill to have that broken down piece of junk than to have nothing at all." So why not, when you walk out of your home tomorrow, appreciate all of the little things that we have and that happen to us....good and the bad.

Ice Skating

This is me and taylor and josh. We all went ice skating the other day, and we had sooo much fun. Unfortunatly me and josh ended up falling once, but taylor never fell.lol. We were gonna push her down, but we are too nice. lol. Well, that was our day of ice skating!!!

If Only I Could Meet Christmas

If only I could meet Christmas.
He would be the nicest man in town.
Of course everyone has heard of Christmas, he is the best man around.
If only I could meet Christmas, he would take me on adventures, ice skating,
cookie baking, and of course christmas caroling.
Girls would look at me in jealousy because I would be out around,
With the most handsome man in town.
If only I could meet Christmas, I am sure I would love him,
And with him with me, things would never grow dim.
He would have the prettiest smile I know, with his teeth looking as white as winter snow.
If only I could meet Christmas, I would make him my best friend.
Today, tomorrow, forever till the end.

~Kelsey Brooke~

Never Shopped So Much In My Life

Okay so I had a lot of fun at thanksgiving. My family came and I ate a lot of food, blah blah blah.lol. I know I am thankful and all that but I am posting about right now is the day AFTER thanksgiving. Most everyone knows that the day after thanksgiving is like major shopping day, correct?..okay, glad we got that taken care of. Anyways...I knew I had to be a part of this when I found out my sister, aunt, and a few friend's wanted to go. We were already at my aunt's house for our thanksgiving dinner and of course our weekly Grey's Day.lol. So when we got the OK that we could go shopping we decided to sleep there until it was time to leave. We planned to leave at 4! IN THE MORNING! So I slept for about an hour and a half...and then they woke me up saying we were gonna leave. I had a sweatshirt but I don't think I was really prepared for how cold it was gonna be outside. yeah, IT WAS FREEZING!!! I mean so cold I thought I was gonna shiver to death.lol. But we got in the car, shivering and whining..and we WERE gonna do this thing. So our adventure began.lol. The first place we went was gottschalks to get something for my cousins and we had to wait outside. Well, we went to some different stores and they all bought some stuff..so we were having a pretty fun time...it got even better when we got our starbucks....warmed our bodies a little.lol. Cuz I was still freezing.lol. Well, all this time we went out I did not buy one thing. I only had $10 to spend so I was looking very carefully.lol. Well all this time, and its about 8 already so we went back to my house so we could pick up my sister so she could come a little too. We went back out and went to 2 of the same places AGAIN.lol. But I finally found what I wanted to buy, a pair of cute short gray shorts, and some bright bright pink tights to go with them. I was fully satisfied. Now what we realized while we were almost done was that it was about 11, 12ish which meant that we would have been out shopping for EIGHT hours.....thats right....we went shopping for EIGHT HOURS!!! That is like pretty much all the way to insane...not just crazy but all the way insane.lol. So I was pretty excited about being a part of all of that..and now I can say I WENT SHOPPING FOR EIGHT HOURS!!

A Random Note From Freshman Darling

So, I am actually have a fun day today. It was a little stressful cuz I had to work but right now I am having a nice time. I am sitting here at the computer writing this post, listening to "holiday" by greenday, which is one of my favorite songs, and soaking in the beauty of life. I don't know what that means, but I am doing it. lol. I was actually just admiring my long pretty hair. Yeah I know I'm conceited but it's getting so long and I love the color of my hair. I am thinking that I might cut it all short though in March. Cuz then it will be really really long, and I will have been able to enjoy it, and then CHOP IT OFF. Oh sorry, did that sound a bit morbid? lol. Didnt mean to. So, now I'm listening to fall out boy, and I was just thinking about how dull life would be if we did not have music. lol. It is soo much fun. There is a song for everything!!! Well, I am going to go now, and finish HAVING FUN!!

A Note From The Almost Dead Freshman

Hi. So I think that my freshman year is going to literally eat me alive!!!! I am trying to keep up with everything, like assignment, classes, tests, studying, let's just say... OH MY GOOOSSSHH!
I am so crazy and stressed out, trying to keep up, I accidentally sent a math assignment to my EARTH SCIENCE teacher. yeah, like she can grade that for me. What am I thinking?!? I didn't even know I did that until she told me. Well, I am really hoping things are gonna get better...hopefully...i think...OH MAN! And I have always had some pretty good grades, wait a second, my grades have always been REALLY GOOD, like I would have a fit if I got a B, and now all im atleast hoping for is a B, yes I would like straight A's, but that can't happen with a snap of a finger. Yeah it would be totally nice if it could, but then again, I guess it wouldn't be school, or called, WORK, if that could happen. So, as of right now, I am going to have to keep walking down this muddy road that leads to my future, that is..if I ever get there and graduate highscool. geez I hope I graduate highschool...what am I saying, of course I am gonna graduate highschool. It basically is just really really challenging right now. Yup, I said challenging not Hard. (psst, even though it sometimes is hard.lol) But for now, I am gonna keep on working and just keep hoping that things are gonna get better. yup yup yup. :)